This is a post I have wanted to sit down and write properly for a while now and a few people on Instagram have also asked to read it so here we go, here is why I have finally said enough is enough and have really thrown myself into my fitness journey to make an overall change for myself and become a much healthier and fitter version of myself at long last. 

This change has definitely been a long time coming and when I look back at old pictures and what I used to do it really does make me wonder how I have ended up like I have. I was always really active growing up and up until the age of 21 I continued like this however, once I hit 21 my knee gave way and those knee issues got worse therefore I was no longer active and the weight started piling on. I couldn't even walk for 5 minutes without getting badly out of breathe and it was making my asthma get much worse which wasn't nice at all, I even started to get more health issues cropping up. I even started to stop going out with Liam on date etc as I hated getting ready and finding something to wear when I hated how I looked in the mirror so it definitely got to the point it was effecting every aspect of my life and I noticed I lost all more or less all of my confidence and it wasn't good for me at all. 

It didn't seem to bother me too much until in 2019 when I realised things really needed to change, the catalyst for this was when my sister asked me to go to a Gymshark event in Manchester with her and I started to panic. I didn't want to go somewhere with all these muscly people when I was almost 17 stone and I became really uncomfortable with how I looked. I ended up saying yes to going though and I will be honest I felt so uncomfortable when I got there with everyone looking fantastic and I just looked so out of place. I knew then that something needed to change but what kicked it all of was when I looked back at the pictures I had taken with some of my favourite Gymshark athletes, I looked huge and a shadow of my former self, my clothes were clung to me and it showed off every roll I had and I just looked like I didn't want to be there and I looked so uncomfortable. This is when I knew I needed to change it, I spoke to Behzinga (Ethan from the Sidemen) and he gave me some great advice and words of encouragement that really helped me decide that a change was needed and to get going.

I started making small changes after that day however, I didn't full get going  until January 2020 when I went into the new year with a plan in place and more determined than ever to make a change. I am actually glad I did start it at this point as once the pandemic hit and we were locked down I just had months to chip away and make progress as I was home alone each day. My days started with a workout and were filled with eating so much better. I was definitely worried at first how the lock downs would effect my journey but they definitely benefited the whole process in a big way as I lost a fair bit of weight. Thing did get a bit bumpy though when things started to reopen and I had to get back into a routine with work and I started to gain a bit of weight back but I am more determined to get that back off and finally start to make much better progress towards my end goal. I now ave an online coach helping me on my journey, family are on board and supportive and I am going to smash every little goal I set for myself. 

It dawned on me recently I am 28 this year, which isn't that far off 30 and in the next two years I really want to become a fitter and healthier version of what I am now as I know it is going to help me in so many areas of my life. So here is why I being more serious about the journey and why I am not giving up this time around and why I am going to push myself to smash those goals and be the best version of me... 

I want to have fun with my nephew, I want to take him swimming, chase him round and play sports with him without me feeling uncomfortable and out of breathe every two seconds.

I want to feel more confident, even after small changes I feel much more confident so just imagine how I will feel after when I reach my end goal

I want to be able to look in the mirror and like what I see, for so long I have hated what I see looking back at me in the mirror but I am going to be changing that hopefully. 

I want to improve my mental health, I know that a big effect for me is my weight and if this improves hopefully my mental health will too plus working out definitely helps with my mental health as it helps clear my head. 

I want to be able to go out with Liam etc and feel good, I think I will have a better social life once I see progress too as I won't be letting my weight etc hold me back. I can go out more, meet new people and hopefully do a lot more for my blogs by making these changes as I don't want to hold myself back anymore. 

I just want to feel better in myself, I just know that hitting that end goal is going to be so beneficial for me overall and I can't wait to get there. 

So there you go that's why my fitness & weight loss journey started and why I won't be giving up this time around I am so determined to smash all these goals I have set for myself and the rest of 2022 is going to be a big push to make a big difference. Let's smash this.